2001-06-19 10:52 p.m.
dating folly

grr.

I have now officially decided that I haven't a friggin' clue when a woman is interested in me. All bets are off, all signs are meaningless.

so, story:

I met a girl while interviewing prospective roommates who really seemed to be into me (as well as digging the household, but not the room). She asked for an escort back to the train, and I thought vibes were flying.

apparently not, at least not in the way that would get in the way of her and her boyfriend.

this coming after a very brief date with another girl from some online idiot site I look at when bored at work. again, we parted ways at the train, and she claims she had a great time and wants to do this again (even though she practically sprinted for the train, giving excuses about the G train stopping service (please, when you live off the L, it's faster to go any other way but the G).

Maybe it's social ineptness, or maybe no one likes to be clear about their impressions, but dammit, I feel a man with weak vision finding out that he is, in fact, blind. I'm down with brutality, ladies, I'd rather know how I'm perceived.

Or maybe it's all just that I haven't been that excited over hanging out with someone since M. I don't need someone, but I'd like someone in my life again. At least a person talks back, while Rainbow Monkey doesn't.

That's a daunting idea. It's been a long while since M., and it would've been nice to meet someone new leading into my birthday.

Toss in the fact that I'm poor and likely to be so until San Diego (though I'd be doing better if I hadn't waited for Dan before buying my ticket), working hard both on comics and at my J-O-B, and I'm just in need of some karmic relief, some fun-with-girls time, not girls who wolf down a bad dinner then sprint for home. (christ, whatever happened to having nowhere to be, walking for hours, talking for as long as you have words... did that fade out after college, or is that just not the way it's done here? what the hell?)

anyway, as the Irish say, enough girnin'.